I’m trying to be much happier and on top of life, but today I just feel sad. Everything going on in the world seems to be especially terrible at the moment and it’s cold and there’s heaps I’m supposed to be doing but I don’t know how to pull myself from this sort of hole. I want my boyfriend.
It’s twenty past ten and I’m out of the house, I ate a proper breakfast (cereal with coconut, cashews, soy milk and raspberries mm), I took my noopept, I had a proper shower (with my new ‘dreamwash’ from lush), I’m having dinner with my parents tonight, and now I’m listening to 2ne1 on my way to work. Today will be a good day, I am determined.
Loved today’s date with Kasia 💜 but coming up from tomorrow I’ll be working 13 shifts in the next 11 days with only 1 day off… What did I get myself into?
Literally just a few days before this shooting happened, I called out a family friend on Facebook for a status about the friendzone. A few of his friends got involved in a joking way, basically saying that friendship “at least deserves a cuddle”, and joking about how sure, they’d cuddle a person who was trying to kill them. I responded by saying that I hoped he’d still think it was funny when he realised that women get raped and killed because of male entitlement and “the friendzone”, and then all the comments were promptly deleted. It wasn’t until after the shooting that he deleted the status. Something that doesn’t surprise me is that both him and his two friends are fairly conservative christians, I went to church until i was about 16 so I’m pretty used to the idea of male superiority. What upsets and worries me is that these boys, and a whole bunch of other boys and girls brought up the same way, are about to go on a “mission trip” to Fiji very shortly. Aside from the fact that the notion of such a thing is insulting and extremely unhelpful, do we really need ideas like that from our western way of thinking brought in to places that might not yet have been so damaged by them as we have? And what happens when/if a Fijian girl rejects the advances of one of these boys, who clearly view themselves as not only very good people and friends, but as led by a divine light to “save” these people?
People keep telling me that it’s the people, not the religion, but then those same people go ahead and do this.